Comments on: In The HELL..!! http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/ Just another WordPress.com weblog Wed, 04 Jun 2008 05:27:32 +0000 http://wordpress.com/ hourly 1 By: sharath http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-34 sharath Wed, 18 Jul 2007 11:02:16 +0000 http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-34 I introspect when am alone, love the solitude i get, love the moment when am able to analyse the serenity of silence, this silence is not deafening, on the contrary, it is soothing. I get the momentary peace of mind and enjoy it. I wonder if this is what the sun feels after it sets? The hiatus of 12 hrs, does that give Him the nirvana that i experience and we yearn? I wonder if this is what the lonely and uninhabited forests feel? Are they in a constant blissful state, or am i fooling myself? Does nirvana exist? Or is it just a word framed by "us" to take a break from our routines and an excuse to just be ourselves, in our own presense? When i utter the word "Om", does it really have a therapeutic effect on me, or is it my belief in god which obscures all the skepticisms of my mind? When i m in a temple, dont i get the same feeling of being in Abraham's bosom that i have when i am alone in my couch? Then whats so special about going to a temple? Does an idol change the way i think? or is it just there for me to have faith in atleast something, when i am apprehensive about trusting any1. But, what if i have faith in myself. Does it obviate the need to have faith in God? Does there exist a treasure somewhere over the rainbow? I have faith in myself. I am strong. But it has to be perennial, otherwise, its no faith. Hindrances try to shatter that faith, and i move on, dilapidated, broken down..My faith rejuvenates me, gives me strength to face one more battle. I have faced many obstacles in life, and i consider myself lucky. I dont want to ride on a plane road. I'd rather ride on a bumpy road, so that i treasure my abbreviated run on the plane. Also, it gives me the feelin of pride. It strengthens my faith in myself. I was afraid, afraid of fear, didnt want to face it, but had to. And now, i aint afraid of anything...The life is too short, you might just never be able to face your fears if you let it overwhelm you. Stand straight, shout!! kick the life in the butt, and move on. In other words, HAVE FAITH!!! Do lemme know how it is I introspect when am alone, love the solitude i get, love the moment when am able to analyse the serenity of silence, this silence is not deafening, on the contrary, it is soothing. I get the momentary peace of mind and enjoy it. I wonder if this is what the sun feels after it sets? The hiatus of 12 hrs, does that give Him the nirvana that i experience and we yearn? I wonder if this is what the lonely and uninhabited forests feel? Are they in a constant blissful state, or am i fooling myself? Does nirvana exist? Or is it just a word framed by “us” to take a break from our routines and an excuse to just be ourselves, in our own presense?

When i utter the word “Om”, does it really have a therapeutic effect on me, or is it my belief in god which obscures all the skepticisms of my mind? When i m in a temple, dont i get the same feeling of being in Abraham’s bosom that i have when i am alone in my couch? Then whats so special about going to a temple? Does an idol change the way i think? or is it just there for me to have faith in atleast something, when i am apprehensive about trusting any1. But, what if i have faith in myself. Does it obviate the need to have faith in God? Does there exist a treasure somewhere over the rainbow? I have faith in myself. I am strong. But it has to be perennial, otherwise, its no faith. Hindrances try to shatter that faith, and i move on, dilapidated, broken down..My faith rejuvenates me, gives me strength to face one more battle.

I have faced many obstacles in life, and i consider myself lucky. I dont want to ride on a plane road. I’d rather ride on a bumpy road, so that i treasure my abbreviated run on the plane. Also, it gives me the feelin of pride. It strengthens my faith in myself. I was afraid, afraid of fear, didnt want to face it, but had to. And now, i aint afraid of anything…The life is too short, you might just never be able to face your fears if you let it overwhelm you. Stand straight, shout!! kick the life in the butt, and move on. In other words,

HAVE FAITH!!!

Do lemme know how it is

]]> By: sharath http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-32 sharath Tue, 10 Jul 2007 11:39:41 +0000 http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-32 adding a few more lines...teh climax...hehe As I lay here fading my thots r invaded by memories of my past I feel the pressures of shame n rejection building As I lay here on the floor I know if I attempt to rise I will only be pushed down again I have no strength to get up It is not worth it anymore Just leave me here to die. adding a few more lines…teh climax…hehe

As I lay here fading
my thots r invaded by memories of my past
I feel the pressures of shame n rejection building

As I lay here on the floor
I know if I attempt to rise
I will only be pushed down again

I have no strength to get up
It is not worth it anymore
Just leave me here to die.

]]> By: sharath http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-31 sharath Mon, 09 Jul 2007 09:29:23 +0000 http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-31 Life of a techi!!!! Am I to be happy? I dwell so deep within myself dat I have never seen the light of the day. The past never happened the future will never come n the present isnt real Depression is a part of everyday life. The birds chirp for someone else The day warms the lives of everyone but me. Happiness lies near but my mind wont let my heart reach for it n happiness never knew. I live in a prison solitary confinement Fear is my guard Nothing stops happiness from reaching me only me from it Am sure that if I can ever grasp it dat the barrier will be forever shattered How do I break thru invisible bars What is it like to touch something I've never had Am confined to myself Just me n my sadness Life of a techi!!!!

Am I to be happy?
I dwell so deep within myself
dat I have never seen the light of the day.

The past never happened
the future will never come
n the present isnt real

Depression is a part of everyday life.
The birds chirp for someone else
The day warms the lives of everyone but me.

Happiness lies near
but my mind wont let my heart reach for it
n happiness never knew.

I live in a prison
solitary confinement
Fear is my guard

Nothing stops happiness from reaching me
only me from it
Am sure that if I can ever grasp it
dat the barrier will be forever shattered

How do I break thru invisible bars
What is it like to touch something I’ve never had

Am confined to myself
Just me n my sadness

]]> By: sharath http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-30 sharath Fri, 06 Jul 2007 12:15:30 +0000 http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-30 hello srishti...alias shruthi.....coming up wid some lines abt my work...watchout for this space hello srishti…alias shruthi…..coming up wid some lines abt my work…watchout for this space

]]> By: sharath http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-29 sharath Wed, 04 Jul 2007 06:40:31 +0000 http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-29 u had asked me to tell abt myself....here it goes.... Am not a saint, but just a mere human. I do not stand as "The One" Am merely a drop in the vast ocean. I cover my soul with the clothes of various colors. Shelter the soul from the world with many protective layers. But wen time calls I shed these clothes. The protective layers vanish. To reveal the naked soul beneath. True in its existence without any disguise. Pure n Genuine. The one without an end. Am the naked soul. The naked truth currently behind the veil u had asked me to tell abt myself….here it goes….

Am not a saint, but just a mere human.
I do not stand as “The One”
Am merely a drop in the vast ocean.
I cover my soul with the clothes of various colors.
Shelter the soul from the world with many protective layers.
But wen time calls I shed these clothes.
The protective layers vanish.
To reveal the naked soul beneath.
True in its existence without any disguise.
Pure n Genuine.
The one without an end.
Am the naked soul.
The naked truth currently behind the veil

]]> By: sharath http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-28 sharath Mon, 02 Jul 2007 12:08:46 +0000 http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-28 n one more thing..hope my informal n more causal way of writing to u doesn't bother u in any way as such.....if so , do lemme know, will try to be formal....but i guess its tough for me n one more thing..hope my informal n more causal way of writing to u doesn’t bother u in any way as such…..if so , do lemme know, will try to be formal….but i guess its tough for me

]]> By: devasrishti http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-26 devasrishti Fri, 29 Jun 2007 16:42:45 +0000 http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-26 Tell me abt urself...... Tell me abt urself……

]]> By: sharath http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-25 sharath Fri, 29 Jun 2007 15:29:18 +0000 http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-25 hmm...its thru orkut....not able to access in office....luckily was able to login dat day....as i rarely do orkuttin, do add me wen u happen to login to orkut next time round(if u feel like)....anyways its ur call hmm…its thru orkut….not able to access in office….luckily was able to login dat day….as i rarely do orkuttin, do add me wen u happen to login to orkut next time round(if u feel like)….anyways its ur call

]]> By: devasrishti http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-24 devasrishti Fri, 29 Jun 2007 10:28:29 +0000 http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-24 good goin...but,hey.. where did u get the link to my blog? good goin…but,hey.. where did u get the link to my blog?

]]> By: sharath http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-23 sharath Fri, 29 Jun 2007 05:32:10 +0000 http://devasrishti.wordpress.com/2007/06/25/in-the-hell/#comment-23 In the silence of my heart my mind still cries for answers. The pain comes callin once again n tears wash thru my soul. The need to understand still so strong. The love once felt so close at hand. Temptation to reach out to u. Almost I fall into it’s reach. Almost to touch ur hand. Almost to hear ur voice. Almost to share u spirit. Almost to love u once more. So close to my heart the memories linger n in the stillness of my being still beckon to me. In the silence of my heart my mind still cries for answers.
The pain comes callin once again n tears wash thru my soul.
The need to understand still so strong.
The love once felt so close at hand.
Temptation to reach out to u.
Almost I fall into it’s reach.
Almost to touch ur hand.
Almost to hear ur voice.
Almost to share u spirit.
Almost to love u once more.

So close to my heart the memories linger n in the stillness of my being still beckon to me.

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