She Was What She Was Not…
Sometimes u dont know the reason y u love them!! U dont know wot makes u so attached to that person sooo much, that it hurts (yes really hard) when they get dettached from us!! She was not my blood, but made her place in my heart. She was no relation to me, yet connected with me in all the ways. She was one person who came in my life when I much needed a friend to share my sorrows n joys. She is one of the very few people who has seen me cry like those lost puppies (coz I wont exhibit my emotions so easily to any1). I shared my secrets, dreams, desiers, sorrows, and pain with her. And there was a day when I felt all other things which was holding my life have somehow become weak, thought of holding on to this string of my beloved best friend as I thought it was one of the strongest bonds. I looked around to hold it, alas!! I could’nt find it!!
Then the truth striked like a thunder!! OhW God!! She faked it all!! She never told me the truth about her , she made up stories for sympathy, she caught me in her web of sympathetic stories. I realized my place was’nt in her heart, it was on her cap like a feather. She wore it whenever she needed to look good.. Utilization!! She utilized me!! Never felt so worst in my life!! I couldnt recgnise my friend who was so close to me was faking it.. Or should I b ashamed that she didnt think I was worth sharing her life with?? Wot is it? I still dont understand….. When time came for me to confront her, she avoided me. I gave up on her…..!!
The relation I thought was warm like a morning sun in the spring, turned out to b cold like those darkest chilling winter nights..!!
And now, itseems she has ruined her life. I feel like forgetting the past and speak to her, help her out and give some meaning to the relation of friendship v had.
But am scared, once betrayed and utilized and trashed(my heart), I dont dare to connect with her again, Coz she can hurt me like hell!!
I thought she was out of my life!! But, c she got a space in my blog.. 
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People who make way to ur heart will not leave without leaving their imprints….
Dont know to cherish those times with her or erase(not possible)!!!!
Well Shru, it’s rightly said “People who make way to ur heart will not leave without leaving their imprints….”
kelavaru innobbara jeevanadalli praveshisi avaralli, mareyalaagada nenapanna, bayakeya seleyanna, aaseya aleyanna, kanasina guchchavanna srustisi hogthaare. kelavaru begudiya bEgeyanna, kahi nenapugaLa maaleyanna, novina anubhavavanna, bhayada kaMpanavanna bittu hogthaare. nin jothe aagirodu 2nd type.
Naanu yaaranna tuMba naMbi, avara mele vishwaasa ittirthivO aMtavaru mosa maadidaaga, avaru nammanna noyisidaga aaguva dukkakke mitiyilla. jIvanadalli mareyalaagada paata kalisibiduttave aMta incedent gaLu..
neenu heLiddu nija, avaru kashtadalliddare aMta tiLida koodale namma mana avarige sahaayamaadalu, avra muKhadalli nagu mUdisaru haMbalisuttade… aadare avaru maadida novina gaaya namma manavanna adara bayakeya baleyiMda horakke seLeyuttade…
no worries shru, many ppl go and come across ur life.. We can’t bother for the one who did cheat us. We have to look forward for someone else with whom we can share our views.. tht’s all..
u’ve done a nice work sharing ur view abt tht gal.. yu’ve done ur part of work. she too may read this blog and her mind may transform,, who knows.. ??? let me wish her mind will change and u ppl again will fall in the relation of frndship…
with regards
Harsha(chintu)
It’s hard to face such situations .. but we should learn from that.. It’s really difficult to avoid the person whom you considered close once.. You seem to be a sensible person & I am sure you will take a right decision
.. good luck …
hey Chintu, bliv me, u could hv written an article urself abt the topic…. good use of words
& buddy Krishna, thanks for the wish
I just hope even though if things wont get better, it should’nt become worse!!
Thats really true………….few people tend to leave ever lasting impression in the hearts……..If she has used you……then its no use of turning back & help her in need…….coz who knows if the same thing is repeated again……..U seem to be avery sensitve person……..so its good to stay away from the person.